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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 20, 2008 19:18:32 GMT -5
Kaige said nothing more on the subject, letting his gaze roam across the surrounding land. He wasn't really sure what to say at that point. Everything had been all said and done. There was nothing more he could do, right? The frown that lingered across his maw disappeared and he sighed quietly, angling his body away from the others to stare out in the horizon, letting himself get lost in the many thoughts that were whirling through his mind at that very moment.
Doom closed his eyes, fighting down the insane urge he had to literally beat down both his mother and his father. They were being ridiculous. But, then again, what could you expect in a family like this? He concentrated on breathing slowly and evenly, getting rid of the anger and annoyance he was currently feeling. Maybe they would work things out, maybe they wouldn't. He couldn't force them into doing anything, not that they would listen anyway. He shook his head, slowly reopening his eyes, and looked to the both of them. "Well, you guys are on your own. We can't do anything to change your mind. We're just pups," he said, somewhat sarcastic on the last part. It was useless, so he was giving up.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 20, 2008 20:04:18 GMT -5
Kali frowned as she looked at her son. “There is nothing left to be done. Your father made it perfectly clear that he doesn’t want to be with me no more.” There was no expression upon her face; she was trying not to break apart, at least not in front of Kaige or the pups. She pushed herself up from the ground and took a step forward, but she turned and looked at Kaige. I hope you know I’ll never be able to forgive myself for what I done to you, Kaige. She thought in her mind, hoping he would know what she thought.
Michiko nodded her head, agreeing with her brother. She remained silent as she nudged her brother for them to leave, as she pushed herself up from the ground, shaking her head at the whole situation.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 21, 2008 15:20:35 GMT -5
Kaige snorted quietly, not saying anything. He kept his gaze on the horizon, now blocking out the thoughts that were crowding his mind.
"That's just what you think," Doom replied, rolling his eyes as he got up like his sister. They were ridiculous; both of them. "Looks like you're just destined to be alone then. What a shame," he said sarcastically as he turned to head back down the mountain. "You guys are just too stubborn." With that, he started walking back down the path, mumbling something under his breath as he left. ooc; Bleh. Writers block.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 21, 2008 17:39:32 GMT -5
Kali frowned and shook her head there was nothing more she can do. She didn't even bother to look back at Kaige. Maybe there was as small hope in her that they could possible work things out, but that flicker of hope quickly died away. For now she knew how Kaige felt about her, she now knew that he didn't want to get back together. And with a small sigh she began to follow her son.
Michiko was the last one to leave. She turned and gazed at her fahter. She then began to follow her mother and brother down the side of the mountain.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 22, 2008 14:33:44 GMT -5
That wasn't too hard... Kaige thought as he sensed the Kali and the pups leave. His head turned just a fraction of an inch and his dark red eyes glanced sideways, making sure they were really gone. When he saw their retreating figures, he sighed quietly and pushed his large frame up, really not sure what to do. In a way, he felt free; like there was nothing holding him back now. Nothing could stop him. Nothing could take control of him. But another part of him felt lost; like he wasn't sure what he was supposed to do now or where he was supposed to go. It felt like there was a large chunk of him missing, creating a hole in his.. in his what? His mind? His heart? His soul?
Who am I kidding? Certainly not myself... he thought, turning his gaze back out to the horizon. In his eyes, he could do one of two things - either sit back and let Kali go, forgetting about her entirely, or he could go after her and talk things through civilly. His brows pulled together and a frown crossed his maw as his eyes dropped to the rocky surface beneath him. Part of him wanted to just let her go; he had too much pride. But there was another part that wanted her to stay. He had let her go once before, would he do it again? There was a promise they made, and promises were meant to be kept, not broken.
A sigh of defeat slipped passed his parted maw; there was no reason to act childish over this. He was an adult, he needed to face it like one. He had dealt with many problems before, this was just another one to add to the list. He turned his head toward the retreating figures and spoke, though he was hesitant. "Kali..." His tone was neutral; there was no hatred or bitterness in it, nor was there sadness. Perhaps, if they talked things over without bickering, they could work things out. He wasn't sure, though, but it was worth a shot. Everyone had ups and downs, and this was just a down. He knew if he let her go with things ending like this, he would regret it for eternity.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 22, 2008 18:13:12 GMT -5
Kali paused. She could have sown she heard Kaige call her name, but it couldn't be so. Part of her believed he would have walked away, but apparelny she was wrong. She slowly turned her head around and looked at him, a confused look upon her maw. She wasn't sure if he wanted to talk, or throw more bitter words at her, but he didn't seem angry.
"Yes?" She said softly, almost not trusting her own voice to stay steady. She knew that there was a slim chance of Kaige ever taking her back, but there was now a little hope within her that prehaps they can work it out. Of course she didn't want to cause him pain, that was the last thing she wanted.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 22, 2008 20:35:42 GMT -5
"I..." He what? What was he going to say? What did he want to say? He was suddenly at a loss for words. He wasn't sure where to start or where things would go. His gaze dropped to the ground and his ears went back just a little as he struggled to find the right words to say. "I think we should talk," he said quietly, raising his head to look back at her. It was the only rational thing to do. "Without the anger or bitterness," he added as an afterthought. He would have to be civil even if he didn't want to, but he felt no need to be angry. All of that had left him just mere moments ago. Right now, he just felt... empty.
"Like adults and not like young pups," he said, adding that as well. Maybe if they talked everything through, somethings would be cleared up. He wasn't really sure. His thoughts were negative, but he wasn't about to lash out at Kali again. He didn't feel bad, though. He wasn't sure if he was supposed to feel bad about not feeling bad. It was starting to confuse him and he made an attempt to say something else, but he wasn't sure what more there was to add.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 22, 2008 20:43:07 GMT -5
"Yes, yes we should." Kali said, realizing now how childish they were acting before. They were mature adults, the things that were said...were unnessasary, however she wouldn't blame him for his words to her, for most of them were true. "Do you want to start or should I?" She asked as she took a few steps forward, her eyes never leaving him. She was ready for anything he said to her. She just wanted him to understand her side of the story.
(( Short crappy post. D: Sorry! ))
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 22, 2008 20:48:37 GMT -5
"You can," he said bluntly. He wasn't trying to be rude, he just felt that it would be better if she started so he could get her side of the story before he started speaking himself. It would be better, anyway, so he would have time to get his thoughts and words together. "I just.. think it would be... best," he added slowly, turning his gaze away from Kali. He wouldn't make any assumptions, nor would he interrupt. He would wait patiently and listen to everything without causing a scene.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 22, 2008 21:02:21 GMT -5
"Okay." Kali said taking a deep breath. She wasn't quite sure where to begin. She remained silent for a few moments as she gathered up her thoughts before she spoke. "First thing first. I didn't love Kaizer. I met him in the forest. I was very upset...for obvious reasons...and he was there to comfort me, which was something I needed very much so, because I was on the brink of killing myself right then and there...instead of waiting for the pups to grow up." She took a deep breath. This was difficult for her, but she had to keep talking. "Once in a while I would return and we would just have a friendly conversation, but then somehow, I guess he fallen in love with me and asked me to be his mate. I was afraid if I said no then he would leave and I would lose that comfort and do something horrible and plus I thought the pups needed a father figure around so I accepted."
She closed her eyes. It felt like this happened yesterday, when it really happened a few weeks earlier. She remembered how she felt when he asked her to be her mate. She of course liked him no more then a friend, and she knew she was foolish to say yes, and gave him any hope that she loved him, when in fact she didn't. "I will not deny and say that I didn't like him the littlist bit, and I'm sure that if I have nevet met you Kaige and met him I could have easily fallen in love with him...but I couldn't. Because my whole heart belonged to someone else and that would never change. Not a day went by when I didn't think of you. Not a day went by were I wasn't missing you. Not a day gone by where I felt guilty for every moment I spent with Kaizer..when it was you I wanted to spend my time with."
She dared to look at him, a small frown came across her maw. She hope he would understand. She hope that he wouldn't call her foolish and tell her the right thing to do was of said no to Kaizer, but she did the wrong thing, mistakes were allowed, right? Nobody was perfect and she knew she was far from perfect. "I-I didn't even think that you would come back...if I had the slightest hope I wouldn't have even talked to Kaizer. When I saw you....when you yelled at me it broke my heart, Kaige. It breaks my heart to see you so mad at me, to have you tell me you don't want to be with me no more, to know I caused you somuch grief." She paused and took a deep breath, she could feel the tears burn in her eyes, but she didn't let them fall. "I never ment to hurt you. Never. Not in a million years would I want to cause you pain. But I did. And you don't know how much that hurts me."
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 25, 2008 20:27:59 GMT -5
Kaige wasn't looking at her as he spoke. Like before, his dark red gaze was held on the horizon, but he was listening to her every word even if it didn't seem like it. A frown would cross his maw every now and then, sometimes deepening, sometimes staying for long periods of time. He made no noise; he was as silent as the night that seemed to be hanging around more often than it should have been. He didn't peer into her mind to see if she was telling the truth, but he wasn't completely sure if she was telling the truth. She could have come up with some sort of story to tell him. She certainly had enough time to. But he wasn't going to assume anything. Not yet, anyway. Or maybe not at all. He wasn't really sure.
When she was done speaking, he was still silent. He made no noise, nor did he move an inch. It looked like he had turned into a stone statue, if anything. He wasn't really sure to say, not even now. Her words irritated him to no end, but he wasn't going to get angry. "You don't make any sense," he finally spoke, his tone neutral. "If you loved me so much, then why did you even bother pairing up with someone else? And yes, I know you said you wanted comfort, but still." There was an edge in his voice, but he kept it under control as best he could. "Regardless of whether or not you loved him, you were still with him. I don't really know what to say, Kali. Or what to tell you." He was silent after that, still looking out into the horizon. "I'm not sure what to do, to be honest. I don't know if I should let you walk away or what."
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 25, 2008 20:35:50 GMT -5
“I know.” Kali said with a whisper. “I have no excuse for what I did. We all make mistakes though.” She said her voice still no higher then a whisper. She wasn’t sure if she would ever stop feeling guilty about what she had done. She knew it was stupid and foolish. She knew she should have walked away from the situation, but she hadn’t. “I’m far from perfect, Kaige, but I’m dead serious when I tell you I’m sorry. I haven’t lied to you yet, have I?” She asked him, her voice going back to its normal range. She wasn’t sure if she could say anything to make him forgive her, to know she knew what she did was horrible, but it could have been much worst. Kali could of have his pups…or even worst…fall in love with him, but she didn’t. The thought never crossed her mind once when she was Kaizer, all that was on her mind was, Kaige, but she had a feeling he didn’t believe her a hundred percent.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 25, 2008 20:48:04 GMT -5
"I'm aware that we all make mistakes," he said, now sounding slightly aggitated. He took a few deep breaths to keep his anger level down to a minimum, but he couldn't help but let just a little of it out. "But what I don't get is why you were with him when you told me that you would never want to be with anyone else but me. I told you I would rather die than be with someone else and I was telling the truth. I guess you couldn't stick to your own word, huh?" He wasn't trying to make her feel guilty or feel any worse than she was already feeling, but he wanted to say what was on his mind. It was his turn to speak, after all.
"I'm not trying to put you down or anything, but really... you did lie to me. You paired yourself up with someone else. That counts as a lie, right?" He didn't expect her to answer it; it was somewhat of a rhetorical question. He wasn't sure what else there was to say at that point. He knew there was more, but he couldn't piece it all together. "I don't know whether or not I can forgive you. I really don't. Yeah, we all make mistakes and sometimes we deserve second chances, but I don't know... I really don't."
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 25, 2008 20:57:44 GMT -5
Kali turned her gaze away from him. She was unable to look at him any longer. It was all true however, what she done was probably unforgivable. She wasn’t quite sure what she was thinking when she said yes to Kaizer. She knew that something inside of her was telling her to say no, and she went ahead and said yes. It wasn’t as if she was overjoyed or anything like that.
“I don’t know.” She said with a sigh, still not looking at him. “I-I’m not quite sure what I was thinking. I wasn’t thinking at all. It was a horrible foolish thing for me to do, I know that…and I knew that then. I was just so miserable that I didn’t do what I known was right, I would take any chance to not feel so depressed anymore, the worst feeling I ever had.” She said. “Of course, that is just an excuse, and it’s probably not a very good one.” She said with a sigh. “I don’t know what you want me to say, Kaige. I really don’t know.”
She didn’t want to give up. However she spilled her heart out. Everything, and yet…he still was edgy about forgiving her, but of course she wouldn’t blame him. He didn’t do anything wrong. It was all on her.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 25, 2008 21:11:28 GMT -5
"I don't know what more there is to say," he said with a faint shrug as a frown crossed his maw. He really wasn't sure what more there was to say. He had said what he wanted to say and she had said what she wanted to say. What else was there to do? He could either let her walk away, or they could try and work things out. In all honesty, he didn't like either of the options. He didn't want to let her go, but he didn't want to start over. "You can't have your cake and eat it, too," he muttered quietly to himself, continuing to stare out at the horizon.
After sitting in silence for awhile, he finally spoke again after taking a deep breath. "I don't really know where we go from here, Kali. I don't know what I want to do. I think it would probably be best if we spent some time apart. I need to gather my thoughts and do a lot of thinking before I come to a permanent decision," he said slowly, his frown deepening. And that was probably the best thing to do at the moment. Perhaps if they spent some time apart, he would know what he wanted to do. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, why not try it out?
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 25, 2008 21:18:06 GMT -5
“Very well.” Kali said, she had a feeling he was going to say something like that. Either that or tell her to get lost. She turned around and began to walk away, however she paused. She remained there for several moments before she turned and looked back to him.
“I’ll respect your decision whatever you choice, Kaige.” She said with a frown. “I know what I done am unforgivable and I know I’m not good enough for you.” She then began to walk away. There really wasn’t much else to say.
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Post by ◕‿◕ on Feb 25, 2008 21:25:41 GMT -5
[blocquote]Kaige opened his mouth to say something about the last thing Kali had said, but he quickly shut it and remained silent. He didn't want to start up a fight, but what she had said reminded him a lot of Shinrin. He merely shook his head and sighed heavily as he pushed himself up and turned to go in the opposite direction. It seemed like he could never really get any true happiness out of life, but he wasn't going to let it get him down. He would be patient; good things came to those that waited. Maybe it was true, maybe it wasn't. He would just have to wait it out and see.[/blockquote]
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