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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 2:08:08 GMT -5
This is Phantom's Journal. It will hold information that he has either told no one or has told a few others. It will start when he was born till now and will keep adding on throughout his years. If a post suddenly gets cuts off it is because something happened (He will share what happened in the next post)
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 11:58:28 GMT -5
July, 10 2003
I've been having bad dreams lately. I'm not quite sure what they mean, they're always so fuzzy....I think a war is going to happen. I can't go to sleep anymore. The dreams are very painful. I told mother and father about it, but they just laughed. I tried to tell the Alphas...but they too laughed. I don't know why anyone won't believe me. I just have a strange feeling that these dreams are going to come true, but why? I'm not sure...and I don't know why everyone won't believe me. I hear them talking about me behind their back. Saying I'm going to cause trouble for them, but what does that mean? I don't know. All I know is I hope my dreams don't come true.
October 15, 2003
My parents are really getting mad at me. They tell me I need to just drop this 'whole dream' thing. They think I'll I'm doing is seeking attention, but that isn't true! I wish that is what I was doing. I can't go to sleep at night, they're getting worst...and so are these headaches I get. No one wants to have anything to do with me, even my parents don't want to be around me. They say I'm embarrassing them.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 12:08:52 GMT -5
November 8, 2003
My mother told me the truth today. She finally took me into our den and sat me down and with a long sigh she said. "Son, let's not beat around the bush and let me get straight to it. You know that mark upon her head and on your necklace? You always asked us what it meant but we never told you. Well, I guess now would be a good time. It basically means 'death, spirit. One who will cause death and pain of hundreds of wolves.'" She frowned at these words. I still remember the look she gave me. Shame. My mother was ashame of me, like it was my fault I bore this mark. She didn't stay to see my reaction for she left just like that. I always wanted to know why they named me Phantom...and now I know...I know why everyone stays away from me and wants nothi---
December 18, 2003
I'm all alone. Mother came back a few moments later and took me away. She told me that she couldn't let me stay in the pack no more for I would have them all killed. I pleaded with her, begging her to let me stay. I promised her that I wouldn't say anymore about my dreams. I begged her not to abandon me....but she did anyway and didn't look back. Now that I remember it never once did she tell me she loved me, nor my father. I hate them both. Everyone around knows about the Death Mark so I have to hide. Darkness is becoming my only friend.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 12:26:02 GMT -5
February 1, 2004
Today I turn one years old, though I don't feel like celebrating. Anyone I seen they don't show a hint of compassion, always pushing me away, and all because of this damn mark. It didn't make it true. I have not killed one wolf or caused anyone pain...not that I know of. I wish others would just leave me alone. Why do they have to give me those looks?....though part of me wants company. I'm lonely. I can't even go out in the daylight anymore. I stay hidden within the darkness. Pretty sad when the darkness is your only company.
June 5, 2004
I snapped. I-I don't know what happened. I'm so angry all of a sudden, and I realize I been building it up...but I didn't mean too...a wolf came by and gave me a dirty look. I'm used to it by now though, so why did I attack him? Worst of all I killed him...and worst then that I enjoyed it! What...what's happening to me? This strange blood-thirsty wolf is calling me to kill, but I don't want to...and yet I do...
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 12:32:42 GMT -5
August 10, 2004
I killed quite a few more wolves over the last couple of months. I'm beginning to lose count. Everyone who gives me those dirty glares will be dead. How dare they judge me! How dare they shun me! Well, they won't live to see another day! They now know when I'm going to kill them...I give them this look..which has been going around as the Death Stare. I like that name. I now have the Death Stare to go along with the Death Mark.
December 19, 2004
Rumors are going around that I've gone insane. Well, I guess I have a bit. I killed so many wolves. Females, males, mothers, fathers, even pups. I no longer care. I no longer want to try to get anyone to like me. They will all pay for judging me. I give up trying to please them. They will all die under my paw for the life they have given me. It is all their fault I am this way! It is all their fault that I'm this murderer....but then again my dear old mother did say that the Death Mark said I was to kill hundreds of wolves....and that is true..I have killed hundreds of wolves.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 13:05:06 GMT -5
December 30, 2004
I really like to sing, and I'm good at it too. When I sing I find other's wanting to see who that voice is...but when they see it is me they back away frightful...then of course I kill them. Singing and Darkness. My only two friends. Others and Daylight are my enemies, I cannot kill the sun (Even though I wish I could) So I will stick with killing the 'other' wolves.
January 5, 2005
I met her today. She is the most beautiful wolfess I have ever seen. Her name is Christine. Christine. A name as beautiful as she is. She came to me. I was sining and she came to me. And without a word she began to sing with me. Together we sang. She didn't turn away! She didn't give me a hateful look! She probably didn't know what the mark meant...I'm not going to tell her thought. After we were done singing she fell asleep...she looks so beautiful even sleeping
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 13:25:55 GMT -5
February 1, 2005
Today is my 2nd birthday, and now I can finally celebrate! I don't think I ever been happier until now. Christine comes back almost every day. We do not speak though. We sing together and then usually she falls asleep since she comes during the night. She calls me her "Angle of Music" At night I sing and she comes....allured by my voice. She didn't sing very good when we first started to sing, but she is getting better every single day. She is beautiful. Did I already mention that?
March 9, 2005
Things are beginning to change..well really Christine is beginning to act differently. I confessed my love to her, over and over again, but she keeps telling me. "I sing for only you and my soul is dead!" She has a fearful look in her eyes when she looks at me....I think she is knows about the Dark Mark...she can see the Death Stare in my eyes. She knows about all those wolves I killed...and yet she keeps coming back. I know she loves me! For why else would she come back? Even though she never told me so, I know she does! She has too.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 14:07:28 GMT -5
June 11, 2005
I love her! I kill for only her! Anyone who dares try to look at her beauty I kill them. She is mine....but then...I know she is sneaking around with another male. I asked her about it and she cried! She cried and told me not to kill him or her. I could not stand seeing those tears fall down. This is what I told her. "Remember this Christine, you promised yourself to me! You will not be able to have a mate, unless it is with me. You may see him, but you must remain where I can keep an eye out on you!" I hate that fool. His name is Raoul, she told me. She told me they knew each other when they were pups. She had this dreamy look in her eyes...a look she had never given me! I will kill him!...but I promised her I wouldn't..
August 15, 2005
She sang for him! I told her she was to sing for no one else except for me and she sang to him! So I went out and kidnapped her. I told her if she was going to be with anyone it was going to be with me! I cried. I cried and told her I loved her. I told her I didn't want to live in the darkness no more. I wanted to have a mate and have a family, but said said nothing. Then Raoul came to rescue her! I threaten to kill him. I told her she had a choice. To be with me or to watch her lover die...with tears rolling down her cheek she actually said she'd be my mate and licked me on the cheek! Never has anyone been so kind to me....and what was I doing? I was being so selfish. Did I really expect her to be happy with me? She didn't love me. She loved him. She was being kind to me. The least I could do was be kind to her. Even if it would break my heart....so I let her go.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 14:22:39 GMT -5
December 20 2005
I don't know what to do. My spirit died when I let her go. I no longer kill. What is the point? However the others are still mad about me and my tricks and wish to kill me. I no longer care. The months are going by slowly, but it both feels like yesterday she was here and also an eternity ago. I don't know what to do....
September, 16th 2006
I've decided to leave. What was the point of staying? Everyone want to kill me and with Christine gone....there was just no reason to stay...but then I ran into a wolfess. She seemed very happy to see me she told me her name was Nasadia Darkstar. At first I didn't make the connection, but then she told me she was my sister! I didn't believer her. I mean I was the only surviving pup of my parents litter. I just laughed at her and left. Who did she think she was?
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 14:37:53 GMT -5
October 1, 2006
She wouldn't leave me alone. At first I didn't believe her....but now I'm beginning too. She told me she was born a year after I left and that before she was born a war did break out! She told me so many information only a real family member would know...so I believe her...I believe her that she is my sister. She told me she hated our parents as well and she wanted to travel with me, but why? She knows of the horrible things I've done, but she told me sh was running from a bad past too, but wouldn't talk about it, I wouldn't talk about my past either. She we began to travel together.
January 13, 2007
Me and Nasadia are getting pretty close. I didn't understand why she would want to be with me and when I finally asked her she said. "Because you're my brother. Our parents are stupid to send you away like that. They were always on my trail as if I would lead the same life as you. As for the killing thing, it wasn't your fault. If I was shun as much as you were I would probably of been a mass murderer as well." ....I always blamed myself because of it...could she be right? Could it not be my fault? Is it my parents fault? If they let me staid and loved me would I of ended up this way? I doubt it.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 15:03:04 GMT -5
June 3, 2007
We came upon this beautiful land. There were a few loners living here, but not a wolf pack. Nasadia insisted that we call it our home and for I to become Alpha. Of course I laughed and shook my head, me an Alpha of a whole pack? It was a foolish idea....but after weeks of bugging me I finally agreed and so here we are. I Alpha and my sister a scout.
July 4, 2007
Some more members joined the pack. One of them was a wolfess named Takhi, one of the first wolves to join. She wasn't the nicest wolf around, but trustworthy. After a while I decided to name her Beta, I knew it was a right choice. After all I needed some kind of help running a pack...I'm not sure how to do it...I just hope I don't screw up.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 15:41:45 GMT -5
October 20, 2007
I met a wolf today. Her name is Death. Such a beautiful name, huh? She was an interesting wolf...and very pretty...but of course it was a quick meeting. Takhi was there as well. She said she was just passing through....I kind of hoped that she stays...but why do I care?
November 15, 2007
I've been seeing a lot of her lately. I really can't remember how it started, but I'm glad it did. We meet when the sun goes down and the darkness surrounds the earth....but then we go on our separate ways when the sun comes out. I'm comfortable being around her. She understands me, unlike most. I'm unsure what is going on with me...I've been thinking about her a lot lately...and those darn dreams came back. Dreams about...well they're hard to explain. An evil thing is supposed to happen and there was a pack, a different back, but it was good...I think...and they have a warning...why do my dreams have to be so confusing?..my life is pretty confusing right now too.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 15:57:55 GMT -5
November 22, 2007
I'm an idiot. That's all there is to it. I'm doomed to be unhappy for the rest of my life. I saw Death today. She was in one of the dens...crying...it was painful to see her cry. She told me she killed a wolf. I forgave her. I'm not one to be mad about that. She was risking her life to save pups, while I killed because someone looked at me the wrong way. I did worst things then her...I then told her I loved her...and it was true. I do love her. I'm in love with her....and then she tells me she loves me. I couldn't believe it. So how am I an idiot? I blew it. I told her I couldn't be with her no more. I told her that we couldn't see each other. Why did I say this? Because I'm stupid. Because I was afraid either I was going to get hurt or her..or both of us. I knew the darkness was still in me and didn't want to hurt her. Plus she's too perfect for me. It hurts now, but I know think I made the right choice....
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 16:15:28 GMT -5
November 23, 2007
Ugh. Like things couldn't get worst. There is an enemy pack that is trying to take over the Nozomi Lands so today I had to warn everyone about it.....but she was there in the audience, she's probably mad at me, for she walked out on me the day before, I don't blame her. I had my sister come up and tell everyone what she spied on...but she also said something that I would never believe...it appears a wolf named Trottel rapped her and now she was pregnant. I'm so pissed off at however did this to my litter sister, but she also knows about me. She nearly told the whole pack that I was in love...but I cut her off. I just feel like being alone....
December 10, 2007
The war happened, and it lasted for several weeks. Lot's of things happened in that short amount of time. Death...was killed...I-I lost all control and ended up killing her brother (Who killed her) I was so angry...and so sad...she died and I didn't even get a chance to tell her why I said what I said...but then this wolfess came named Amaya, I'm not quite sure what she did, but I'm thinking she gave her life up for Death because before I knew it Amaya was dead and Death was alive. I was so happy. I told her everything I felt and then I asked her to be my mate and the Alphess..and she said yes! I think she was a bit visitant about being Alpha Female, but I know she will do a good job at it.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 16:26:32 GMT -5
December 11, 2007
She came back! After everything she had to come back! After I forgotten all about her and moved on with my life she came back! Christine..my first love...my old life...came back into my future. I will not lie and say no past feelings came back for they did...until Death came...and told me she was pregnant. I almost blew it. I knew I was inches away of going back with Christine, but I made my choice. I love Death. I don't love Christine, and so she left...I'm still in shook..I'm going to be a father?
December 17, 2007
They're here! 3 beautiful pups. One of them didn't survive. I feel bad for Death I think it hurt her the most. Their names are Skyla, Raven, and Kiba. All wonderful just like their mother. It's odd being a father...I hope I don't mess up...I'm not really sure how to be a father. Since my father wasn't really a father towards me. I promise though I'm not going to let my fate be the fate of my children. I want them to have good lives.
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Jan 4, 2008 16:31:37 GMT -5
December 30, 2007
A few weeks after the pups were born a hawk came and almost killed them. Luckily for them Kiba managed to kill it. I'm surprised that a pup would be able to kill a full grown hawk, but when I asked him...he couldn't remember...I didn't care. I'm proud of him. Of all of them....I'm starting to worry about Skyla though. She has this imaginary friend named Hope (Ironically was the name that Death named the dead pup) and insists upon that she is real and that Hope was her sister. I just hope she doesn't start to have the same fate as I did...that's the last thing I want....
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Post by ::Phantom:: on Feb 13, 2008 8:46:50 GMT -5
February, 13 2008
A lot of things has happened over the couple of months. The children are growing up beautifully. However I am concerned about Skyla....she keeps going on about an imaginary friend that she claims to be her sister, but she has a wild imagination already and does get in trouble a lot...I'm not sure what to do with her. Another pack has came. Wanting to take over the land. Eternal darkness has lingered upon his for a while now...along with freezing cold mornings and deadly bitter nights. I know they're planning something. I don't trust that Alpha of his. I just don't know what to do.
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